Annerisms

The best laid plans are sometimes just a one night stand.  I'm not big on planning but with three kids I can see the benefits of it. I wanna be clear that this holiday season my biggest three gifts are my children. I'm not asking for more than that. Holy cow, I hit the jackpot! I am also pretty damn fortunate to have a partner who understands that healing concepts continually flow through life and they're free for the taking. And, she has this beautiful way of seeing that everything has a silver lining.  I'm feeling for all you parents out there who are struggling to get the quota of gifts under the tree. I'm not there and no one is more grateful about that than I am. I believe this is the direct result of not owning a tv, or maybe not having cable. We have an old 19inch that belonged to Nancy's mother. For nostalgia reasons, I can't seem to let go of it. (I hope Marie Kondo isn't one of my readers!) My kids watch DVDs on it and that's it. So ou...

Believe it or not, that's what I want etched into my tombstone. And, yes, I want a monolithic one.  Today marks a week that I have been without my wallet. Here's a scoop of insanity for you: I know exactly where I lost it, it was at the Rubio's on 7th Avenue. That's a good fifteen minutes from my home. But that isn't stopping me from continuing to look for my wallet under every piece of clothing or book here at the house.  It feels like I lost my identity and I'm not ready to let go of it. I want the old me back. I don't feel ready to encounter the unknown and not yet.  Yesterday as I walked the trails, I begged God to hurry up and transform me. When the words “hurry up” left my lips I suddenly recalled that verse in the Bible where it says, “a day is as a thousand years” to God. (2 Peter 3:8) Then I really begged God not to make me the female version of Enoch. This transition of change is beginning to get to me. I know life is waking me up. I kno...

FALLING IN LOVE, the physics of it - it being the physical properties and phenomena of the fall.  Amidst my cleaning, I came across an old digital camera that used to be my best friend back in the day. A Canon 8.0 megapixels. This, of course, was long before I owned an iPhone. But not so long ago that the photos have lost their relevance. The damn camera was dead so I had to hunt up some AA batteries so I could see what was on it.  Love cannot be bought or sold It's actually more precious than gold I've got it in several full buckets Some may read that as arrogance But don't be fooled Everything I have is a gift I didn't earn any of it People look at her Then they look at me And they know I'm living in luxury I've dreamed of a certain kind of love since I was a kid. I'm not ready to say I've acquired it, either. I am ready to say that I'm finally ready for it, though. I'm high on romance, all idealists are. I am practical but very theatric...

Unmasked Human Things I accomplished over Thanksgiving break: 1. Worked through resentment towards one human being 2. Ate whatever I wanted to without trash talking myself 3. Put my calendar away and lived moment by moment 4. Spent time only with those I wanted to and not those I felt obligated to 5. Prepared most of our meals and ate them slowly in the company of my family 6. Listened more than I talked 7. Stole as many glances of Nancy that I could 8. Turned my alarm off and slept in 9. Caught up on some luxurious reading 10. Took my dogs on a long hike every day 11. Spent more time outside than inside 12. Outgrew some of my fears 13. Saw a scorpion and didn't scream-cry 14. Cried unabashedly with a group of my women friends 15. Watched my kids grow a little bit more 16. Drove around town slower than I usually do 17. Avoided laundry 18. Chilled like nobody's business 19. Won every game of Rummikub I played 20. Got rid of four bags of stuff It's December 1st, the f...