"THERE'S SOMETHING BETTER THAN THIS."

 


I wonder how many of us are really in turmoil over what is happening to our country? I mean, truly in turmoil. It's hard to get a gauge when you read social media. There is so much propaganda, distortion and animosity out there. Most of us feel like we can't afford to feel or we'll lose our grip and fall into the abyss.
This morning I chatted with my spiritual mentor about the concept of powerlessness. This belief some of us have that we are in control is really an illusion. What does control really look like anyway? On most days, I live life by the seat of my pants. I'm running from here to there and hoping I'm checking off those "to do's" where my children are concerned, as well as my own personal adult life. It's hard to sit quiet. It takes a lot of discipline to sit alone, quiet and houseclean the inner thoughts. I have to do it or life becomes overwhelming.
Our country is not in a good place. I'm not writing this so some of you will comment and counter me, either. It's a belief that I really feel strongly about. It's also a belief that has allowed me to do a lot of judging. Such as, if you don't believe the country is not in a good place then you are a dumb person because it's easy to see the country is in a bad place. I know enough not to voice this but I understand today how this belief has created distance between me and others. Distance isn't always what I need or want.
My life goal is to be someone who does not need to draw lines. I'm fascinated by this idea that we could all really be equal. I hold a lot of hope that the world is going to get better. I hold hope that we are going to learn from our mistakes. I'm not interested in repeating experiences but yet here we are. I fee like I've made a lot of mistakes. But, I don't put those mistakes in front of my hope. Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to be kind.
At this time, I bet a lot of us are thinking (and hoping) “There’s something better than this.” Something better than here, better than now, better than what I’m living. This belief can become like a white noise machine – on in the background until we forget what silence feels like or that it’s even running at all. I try to look beneath the veneer of my own life to see what stress this belief is causing me. I think when I believe that there is something better than this, I see mistakes everywhere. I blame myself for not doing more in the past. If I'd done more then I wouldn't be where I am now. I break the 11th commandment all the time.** I let go of this belief this afternoon. Not for good. I'm sure I'll believe it again. But I got to experience what it felt like not believing this. The world actually felt like a good place. I felt grateful for the path that got to me to where I'm at, with all its dips and curves. I found some other beautiful findings in the experience as well.
Maybe for you, this post resonates. If it does, get still. Get silent. Do some inner housecleaning. We're going to need a lot of healthy strong robust courageous folks in the near future to rebuild our broken communities. Hell, even today, we need these folks today! My kids need a healthy strong robust courageous Dad on a daily. I do what I can to show up for them this way.
"Love springs from awareness, seeing ourselves and others as we are. The most painful act, is the act of seeing. But it is in that act of seeing that love is born." ANTHONY DE MELLO
**Thou shalt not should on thyself.
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