THANKSGIVING BREAK ACCOMPLISHMENTS

Unmasked Human
Things I accomplished over Thanksgiving break:
1. Worked through resentment towards one human being
2. Ate whatever I wanted to without trash talking myself
3. Put my calendar away and lived moment by moment
4. Spent time only with those I wanted to and not those I felt obligated to
5. Prepared most of our meals and ate them slowly in the company of my family
6. Listened more than I talked
7. Stole as many glances of Nancy that I could
8. Turned my alarm off and slept in
9. Caught up on some luxurious reading
10. Took my dogs on a long hike every day
11. Spent more time outside than inside
12. Outgrew some of my fears
13. Saw a scorpion and didn't scream-cry
14. Cried unabashedly with a group of my women friends
15. Watched my kids grow a little bit more
16. Drove around town slower than I usually do
17. Avoided laundry
18. Chilled like nobody's business
19. Won every game of Rummikub I played
20. Got rid of four bags of stuff
It's December 1st, the fog in my soul continues to lift. I've seen the sun more over this break than in times past. I slowed down more than I ever have and I was rewarded emotionally for it. My ego didn't show itself obnoxiously. I kept my side of the street clean and didn't worry about what others were thinking of me. I can't tell you how good that feels because I can be OCD when it comes to what others think of me. I've been living out of fear and surviving for so long, it feels really amazing to live from a place of peace. Whether you believe me or not, you can survive peace. Everything doesn't have to be about you and everything doesn't have to be dramatic. 
If any of you are interested in finding the peace I've found, it can be yours for three easy payments of $99. Yes, I do Venmo.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

WINTER What does winter mean to me? A season of cold and long dark nights. But also a season of stories. As a Navajo, stories are all I have. Winter has become a season of the imagination for me. A season of reflection, where I am asked to face the ghosts of the past. And, in facing them, I must treat them calmly and civilly before the snows melt and the cycles of the seasons can begin once more. This week the emotion of anger boiled up between the ribs and shoulder blades. Ice packs weren't doing the trick, either. I'm not going to sugar coat this, I loathe fear tactics and folks who use them are on my less-than-desirable list of those I want to hang with. I was raised in an environment where I was scared into believing that Jesus died for my sins and that gave God license to always watch me to make sure I did the right thing. I mentioned before that that parenting maneuver wreaked havoc on my twenties. Instead of being carefree and independent, my twenties were fraught with i
Read more

FALLING IN LOVE, THE PHYSICS

Image
FALLING IN LOVE, the physics of it - it being the physical properties and phenomena of the fall.  Amidst my cleaning, I came across an old digital camera that used to be my best friend back in the day. A Canon 8.0 megapixels. This, of course, was long before I owned an iPhone. But not so long ago that the photos have lost their relevance. The damn camera was dead so I had to hunt up some AA batteries so I could see what was on it.  Love cannot be bought or sold It's actually more precious than gold I've got it in several full buckets Some may read that as arrogance But don't be fooled Everything I have is a gift I didn't earn any of it People look at her Then they look at me And they know I'm living in luxury I've dreamed of a certain kind of love since I was a kid. I'm not ready to say I've acquired it, either. I am ready to say that I'm finally ready for it, though. I'm high on romance, all idealists are. I am practical but very theatric
Read more
Image
  To Whom it May Concern The older I get, the more I realize how incredibly patient love is. I've been in and out of transformative moments this week. I began spring break with picking up my kids from school and then pulling over to the side of the road and puking my guts out. I puked so much and so hard that I thought one of my kids should call 911; I was shaking so much in the after math. I hadn't really eaten that morning so my body was releasing processed food from the day before. I got out of the car and laid on someone's front lawn hoping that the the coolness from the grass would calm my shaking body. I didn't have my bearings. I was scared. Who do you call when you're scared? I certainly know not to call a stranger. I don't know all the nurses at Indian Health Center but I know that the majority of them are Natives. I've been in ER twice in my life. Both times I was rushed to Phoenix Indian Hospital. Both times a Native nurse held my hand throughout.
Read more